Thursday, May 2, 2024

Thoughts and Stuff

It's been two months now and although I'm mostly having good days, one or two bad ones creep in here now and again and I find myself sobbing and alone somewhere.

Yesterday was the "Gotcha" anniversary or bringing Olivia home from the Humane society, and everything came crashing down around me all over again.  Just seeing those sweet toe beans and remembering what a little ball of crazy she was even up to her last few months on Earth and I have my memories and videos and pictures, but I can't experience it again.

I've been trying to do things to find peace again, reminding myself of things I can do still, the things I should be working on right now, but instead I find myself going back to those moments and just being miserable instead.

I know it will get better, but the constant reminders are around me at all times.